:: Saturday, March 07, 2009 :: a week of adventure
so I did manage to do some switches with my shifts and ended up with this one week off.... it's been an adventurous one alright! I did nothing but sleep and be lazy! I can't help it, I'm just exhausted almost all the time and so sleepy... it's been a very sleepy first trimester so far.. hopefully it's not going to be like this all through until I'm due coz that's going to be difficult! Right now all I could wish for is to have my Mat Leave right about now! I'm just soo lazy to do anything! *sigh*
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:: Sunday, March 01, 2009 :: UPDATE! (baby talks)
FINALLY! an update! well, indeed i have been busy... its really different having to juggle things around when you have a baby.. i was just thinking the other day how much time i actually had before I had Luke.. I cannot imagine how easy it was that time!
but, I still wouldnt change anything.. I love Luke and I love having him! and I could go on and on about him, LOL!
(pictures were taken last Family Day February 16, 2009)
Anyways, lately, I've been thinking about how surely lucky I am to have given birth to him at his term. 2 of my friends' babies are pre-term babies and both of them have been in and out of the hospital lately. One of my friends gave birth at her 6th month due to placenta previa.. when the baby came out, the baby had some heart murmurs and some other complications.. the baby had to stay in the NICU after birth for a few months. Now the baby is 10 months old - and just recently, they found out that she had some minor but rare form of hydrocephalus.. the baby had already gone thru a brain surgery very recently to remove the fluid from her head.. the other friend of mine - her baby came out when she was at her 7th month, i believe.. the baby also came out with some heart murmurs and some other complications.. this baby, as well, had to stay in NICU for a few months after birth.. this baby has been having some kidney problems for awhile as far as i can remember.. but just recently, he was hospitalized due to his low blood count. At 15-16 months old, this baby has already gone thru a blood transfusion.. And from what I hear from my friend, the baby is going to have a scope done to see if he has any bleeding inside the body..
These poor babies are going thru a lot already at such young ages! And I could not imagine how my friends are coping up with these.. The worst that I've had to deal with when Luke gets sick is his colds, and that alone is enough to make me so anxious.. And oh, as well as this one time when he got a UTI.. but that's all...
Sadly, a lot of the times, pre-term babies are not fully physically developed when they come out and that's why there are some medical complications that need to be dealt with as they are growing up.. Most of them out-grow these.
*sigh* I just really hope and pray for my friends' babies..
See, it's never about having or wanting a boy or a girl, it's all about having a healthy baby at birth - atleast that's what I've always put it... and that's exactly what I am hoping and praying for for this new baby that's on the way!
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:: Wednesday, November 05, 2008 :: Update!
It's been awhile since my last update.. lots of things have happened.. Luke is 1 yr old! *yey!* It was so stressful planning and organizing everything, but it was all worth it.. I managed it all by myself, yet again! *LOL!* Im glad that everyone had a great and fantabulous time, coz we did!! I could do it all over again..... in a year! LOL!! thank God it only happens once a year! *sigh* my boy is growing up so fast!
Luke had his first trick or treating on Halloween... He had a great time as Elmo.. Surprisingly no one else had dressed up as Elmo in our neighbourhood and everyone loved Luke! and speaking of Halloween, I had my own share! I ended mine with a bang! My Montero, which was parked right outside our house, was hit by some amateur driver just before midnight.. the funny and ridiculous thing was, there was a tree and a car right beside my car and another car behind mine and the offender did not hit any of those - just mine! She said she thought she stepped on the brakes but she stepped on the gas instead.. So now my Montero is under-repair at the autobody shop.. and her insurance is paying all the expenses.. Initially she wanted me to bring my truck to her dad's, since her dad was apparently a mechanic.. but hell no!! never in a million years! Im not stupid!! It's not easy not having my own vehicle.. I have to temporarily use a rental car, which is covered by my insurance... and i dont really like driving it... *sigh* it's going to be awhile before I get my vehicle back...
on a different note, it wont be long before my official return to work... Nov 17!! *yikes* Im really not looking forward to it.. nobody would anyways.. it's going to be tough, especially with Luke around.. but im glad that im going to have my mom to baby sit for the most part.. since i will be working 12hr shifts, I dont need to work 5 days a week and i have requested that I work on the days that my mom is off from work.. so hopefully everything is going to work out as planned.. I dont want to bring my son to a day care.. I'd quit my job just to look after him if I had nobody else to look after him.. (but ofcourse Mon wont let me, LOL! he would have to work 3 full time jobs inorder to replace my salary, LOL!) Anyways, I wish there was a way of earning money while staying at home.. *sigh* yeah, whatever!! I should stop day dreaming and start looking for my ID badge and my parking badge instead coz that earning-money-while-at-home aint happening for sure...
*yawnsss...* i should get some sleep now... come to to think of it, i should actually try to get lots of sleep from here on coz I know I wont be getting much once I go back to work!
(will try to visit blogs tomorrow ^__^)
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:: Tuesday, October 21, 2008 :: *sighhhh*
I dont think I demand much... I am easily pleased but yet, I cant seem to get even the simplest of all the things that I ask and wish for. *sigh* we keep coming back to this over and over again and Im beginning to feel tired and sick of it.. *sigh* I dont think its me coz I have adjusted in a way that I never thought I would just to work things out but I can only do so much..
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:: Saturday, October 18, 2008 :: trying to find the answer...
i dont understand why it's so hard for me... it shouldnt be but it is... *sigh* I hate feeling this way and I was doing ok all along... *tsk!*
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:: Saturday, October 11, 2008 :: tsk! tsk!
Man claims he impregnated woman while asleep
WINNIPEG - A Winnipeg man claims he was asleep when he impregnated a woman and is suing her for damages, including mental distress and anxiety, because legally he may now have to pay child support.
In a statement of claim filed in Manitoba Court of Queen's Bench last week, the man claims he was visiting the woman in October or November 2006 when he fell asleep.
The man alleges he woke up and found the woman was having sexual intercourse with him.
The man says that when he "demanded that she cease and desist," she complied.
But about nine months later the woman gave birth to a child that he agrees is his.
According to court records, the woman launched a court action for child support in Manitoba Court of Queen's Bench last year.
The man is seeking damages including reimbursement for all child support expenses paid and payable by him.
No statement of defence has been filed and the allegations have not been proven in court.
:: Friday, October 10, 2008 :: absence makes the heart grow fonder
indeed! these days, when Im working a few shifts in a row I usually stay up in Newmarket with Luke so that my mom can baby sit while I work.. It's usually 2-4 days after when Mon and I see each other again... I find that it has actually lessen our arguments and fights, and that we tend to be more humane and civil with each other, LOL!! He annoys me to a certain point and Im sure I annoy him in certain ways too, but nobody is perfect... I guess we've just been together for such a long time now that having a space to breath and a time apart from each other regularly make it more possible for us to actually stay together, LOL! ..
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:: Sunday, September 28, 2008 :: It's official!
So my Maternity Leave ends on Oct.12 and I am returning to work.. Our unit manager wants me to take some of my vacation hours prior so I wont be returning until Nov.17.. I cant believe it! It's really official that I am returning to the real world of nursing! At times, I feel excited to return when I think about the adrenaline rush and code blues on our floor.. But more often, I dont really feel like returning to work, mainly becoz I just wanna stay at home and play with Luke. But life has to go on I guess and I should just be thankful that I still have a full time job to return to.
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:: Monday, September 15, 2008 :: the things we take for granted
i never realized how much free time i used to have until I had Luke... i can still remember how i used to spend my days off from work just sleeping and slacking off and how i used to procrastinate.. But now, I cant even procrastinate becoz things will never be actually get done if I do, or they will be done but after awhile.
there's the shopping and going to the mall - I seem to have the time but not as plenty as I used to since I have to work my schedule around Luke.. I wanna make sure that it doesnt interfere with his feeding schedule as much as possible. no more late night parties every weekend becoz I wanna make sure that Luke is in bed by 10pm atleast or else he gets cranky. and besides, having to start a day with him by 7-8am and spending a full day with him are more than enough reasons to put him to bed by 9-10pm. it has become a routine for me to do my house chores during his nap times becoz Luke requires my full attention when he's awake - he crawls everywhere, likes to touch everything, climbs up and down the bed and chair, opens the cabinets..... he's such a super duper active baby and i cant complain about that ^___^ and im sure there's more things to look our for once he starts to walk and that doesnt seem for long. we've seen him take a few amazing unsupervised steps around our room - from our bed to our TV.. and he just loves doing it! ^__^
so now my Maternity Leave is coming to an end and I really cannot imagine how Im going to be able to manage and balance my time with him and work, plus the house chores.. I know I can, it's just going to be hard in the beginning for sure, but I know eventually i will be able to.. but i just cant imagine it yet... would've been nice if i didnt have to do 12 hour-shifts at the hospital, and Mon has actually insisted that I find another job that allows me to work 8-hour shifts during weekdays only but I dont really wanna do it just yet for employment-history and buying-a-house reasons...
*sigh* 24 hours a day is not enough!
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:: Wednesday, August 27, 2008 :: Tagged!!
Are you deeply in love with your spouse or boyfriend/Girlfriend? If you do, let’s try how well you remember the moment of your life with him. But before you put yourself in the hot seat please read the rules of this tag first.
RULES: 1. This tag should be pass on to your closest friends. 2. Visit the blog of the person you’ve got this tag. 3. Leave a comment on her/his tag post. Be sure to thank her/him for this tag. 4. Highlight and link all the list of people who accepted this tag by visiting their blog site. 5. There are 10 questions that you need to answer but you will be the one to write the 10th question for the next person you want to pass this tag.
Here’s your questions: Be Honest and True!
1. How did you meet your husband/wife or boyfriend/girlfriend?
- i met him through his brother /internet =P
2. Where did you go in your first date?
- Queen Street
3. When was your first intimate kiss?
- oh geez, i dont remember.... *tsk!*
4. How many girlfriends/boyfriends he/she had in the past? Do you honestly know?
- dont know
5. What is his/her ethnicity?
- filipino
6. What is his/her favorite food?
- sinigang na hipon and nilaga
7. What is he/she like if he/she is mad?
- doesnt say anything, tends to walk out instead.
8. What are the things he/she did you think is the most romantic thing he’d/she’d ever done? the most…
- when he used to pick me up or drive me to work .. but that doesnt happen anymore since I drive now on my own, LOL!
9. Describe how he/you proposed to you.
- oh geez! haha, i got pregnant and then we said right after "let's get married!".. there was never any official proposal...
10. Are you the sweet-mushy type or the no-pda type?
:: Wednesday, August 20, 2008 :: Mat Leave is ending soon!!
I cant help but think constantly these days that I will be returning to my full time job very soon.. My husband and I have been trying to figure out how things are going to work out with our son. I have some close friends that I trust well enough to baby sit Luke, and then there's my mom (but I cant really rely on my mom a lot since she's also working). But Mon is a bit more picky than me, he doesnt want anybody else to look after Luke but us as much as possible. He insists that I find a job that would require me to work during the days only, and no night shifts - so basically no shiftings. The idea is: I would work during the day and he would work during the night. I love the thought of it, however, I think I'd prefer to work at my old job, even if we do 12 hour shifts/day becoz I get to have more days off mainly. *sigh* if only I could just stay at home... So far, the solution that I could think of is to work during weekends for now, and be off during weekdays - that would give me enough hours anyways to maintain my status as a full time RN in our unit - and then he can work during weekdays. I dont really like working weekends but that's the only way I see right now that would benefit Luke. Im going to propose this plan to him and hopefully he would let us give it a try for atleast 2 months when I return to work. Such difficult decisions! *sigh*
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:: Tuesday, August 12, 2008 :: update
Yep, its been awhile again but it's really nothing new..
I've just been busy with life in general - work, Luke and house chores..
I picked up a shift for last Sunday (10.08.08) but i was too exhausted (and lazy at the last minute) so I decided to call in sick.. I had to lie unfortunately, but I had no other choice anyways... I decided to give the agency a call at 3:30am on Sunday morning right after we arrived home from Angie's baby shower.. Nobody pickep up obviously so I just left a made-up story on their voice mail.. God only knows I didnt wanna lie about it but I had to lie... A few minutes later after I made that call I felt a sudden rattle in the whole house and heard a loud bang as if somebody/something fell on the floor.. I looked around the house but everything was intact and everybody was sound asleep except for me.. I thought to myself God must be punishing me for lying, He must be showing me signs of anger... You wouldnt believe how fast my heart was pumping - I was probably having a Vtach for 10 minutes or so! It seemed like nobody else felt or heard it except for me since everybody was sound asleep... I decided to browse the internet for awhile to calm myself after what just happened... A few minutes later I felt like the whole house shook again, and this time I thought I wasnt crazy or hallucinating.. It felt like an earthquake but with an explosive sound.. I looked out the window fearing that one of our neighbour's house was in fire but something else was on fire from a distant and I couldnt tell at that time what it was... I woke up Mon right away.. We could here the sirens of the fire truck, police and paramedics.. In my PJs, Mon and I, along with our neighbours, went to check out what was going on... We saw the blazing fire just outside our complex, the fire was huge but thank God it was quite a distant from us... We didnt know what was on fire until later on that morning at the news on TV... a Propane Facility!!
a Propane Facility in a residential area??!! what was that all about??
Anyways, they had to force evacuation to those people living within 1.6km radius of the said facility in the morning since they were still wasnt sure if there were any more dangers of further exploision... Thank God we were not apart of it all... We feel terribly sorry for those who were so badly affected by this tragic event... We could have been easily one of them but thank God really that we're not... thanks Willa for your thoughts...
this video shows a good approximate as to how close our house is from the actual site...
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Luke has been spiking fever since yesterday evening and i'd been trying to diagnose it myself.. I gave him a dose of tempra and his fever went away.. I already knew that he was cooking something but didnt feel the urge to go to ER just yet since he wasnt in any distress and we actually had an appointment to see his pedia later this afternoon.. However, I woke up at 3am today and found him shaking in fever *my poor baby* so i decided to take him to Sick Kids ER.. Mon was working last night but good thing he was able to leave to take us to the hospital.. I wasnt panicking at all for the most part except when we got to the ER, Luke's fever had gone up already to 39.7C.. I was afraid of convulsion, but luckily we were already at the hospital and the nurse gave him a tyl sup right away.. the resident assessed him right away but couldnt figure out what questions he would ask, he kept going around in circles asking about his eating habits and vomiting episodes... i was close to snapping out.. my gut feeling told me that Luke was probably having either tonsilitis or UTI but I didnt say anything becoz I could be wrong too... So after that whole conversation about Luke's eating habits he decided to report off what we talked about to his senior resident... since he seemed alright except for the fever, we knew that he must have some sort of infection somewhere.. they decided to test his urine at the end.. they had to catheterized my poor baby, but he didnt cry surprisingly.. the urine dip showed that he is likely to have UTI so he was put on anbx for 10 days... he must've inherited the UTI from me *sigh* oh well, im sure he's gonna get better soon, especially now that he's on anbx.
Nevertheless, the UTI hasnt changed much of him... he's still the usual naughty, super-duper active and devious boy of mine, LOL! he knows how to climb down our bed now *yikes* he's more talkative than ever, he can say "mama" "dada" "brrr...." "grr..." and some other stuffs.. he makes funny faces when u ask him too... he knows how to distinguish me from his dad and other people.. he can stand on his own for a few seconds now.. OMG he's learning so many things and so fast i cant even keep track! LOL!
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anyways, this update has been super long.. i need to wrap up.. so much more house chores to do..!
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ABOUT
QUEENZ | 25 26 | Gemini | resides in Toronto | happily married to MON | a new mom to BABY LUKE | employed as an RN but presently on Maternity Leave |
unpredictable | spontaneous | simple-living | hopeless-romantic | self-confessed martyr | crazy for sweet stuffs |
loves trying different restos in town | amateur web-designer | night-owl | some singing abilities | loves music | occassional cook |
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